It’s the first day of Fall break, within our new Balanced Calendar for the school year. Zack is home with me, while Brayden is at school on his regular Monday, Tuesday, Thursday schedule (his school is open this week, and actually Zack is going there for Camp later this week). The house has been enjoyably quiet this afternoon as I’ve been plugging away at my To-Do list and Zack has been very nicely keeping himself occupied with his Legos and coloring. I took him with me this morning to a meeting I had, but we were both prepared and I had everything he needed to allow me to focus. Turned out to be a great meeting (but that didn’t surprise me)!
For those of you that know me, or have been (somewhat) following me, I have a book coming out soon. Reclaim The Joy of Motherhood – How I Defeated Postpartum Depression. I am excited, anxious, nervous… to say the least. It’s been a process, and although I don’t have a hard release date yet, it’s coming… SOON.
I’ve also been working on creating a class that I will be teaching via teleseminar (this is probably what I’m MOST excited about right now – because of the potential reach I will have to help other women who are going through PPD), followed by a series of half-day to three-day retreats, and ultimately becoming a speaker on PPD for audiences worldwide (WOW, am I really doing this??? – YES!). Sometimes I blow myself away with the vision I have and even more so that I can see it so clearly.
Am I scared? Heck yeah! I’m freaked out!!
Am I nervous and anxious? You betcha! The book alone has me awake at night, but then the thought of everything else I can see myself doing… I just can’t even explain it.
Am I excited? Most definitely! I think the excitement is what is motivating me right now to keep on moving. Baby steps. One at a time. Just… keep… moving.
I mentioned in a Facebook post last week how blessed I am to know so many wonderful alliances to help me in creating my business. It’s true. I know as Mothers we tend to Do-It-All. We wear many hats, and our own hat is the one that’s usually stuffed under the bed, dusty and forgotten. I’m taking a bit of my own advice here and dividing up layers of my hat, giving other people a chance to help me out. It’s almost as if my entrepreneur hat is being quilted by all the professional people I’m working with, until finally it will become one beautiful, functional piece of art. How cool is that?
I find that my time is limited, and precious, especially as I strive to be fully present. Reminding myself to just… keep… moving is extremely important. I tend to get easily overwhelmed with everything that needs to happen for me to attain my vision, but I also tend to get frustrated when I feel I’m at a stand-still. Taking a step forward, or even sideways, is better than not moving at all. (There’s a really cool quote about when you’re moving you can course correct as you go, but I can’t find it right now… sorry)
This is true no matter who you are or what you are trying to achieve. If it’s your health, a promotion at work, building a new relationship. Nothing will change if you stay stuck where you are. You must take action, however small, tiny, miniscule or irrelevant you may think it is – do something to change something.
I’ve come a long way since my Postpartum Depression. It took work, it took action, it took a long time. It was HARD. But I did it. Everyone can get through it. With a little encouragement, support, guidance and most importantly the desire to want to get through it. No one asks for PPD. It isn’t something you grab at the checkout stand next to the magazines, or something you subscribe to by checking a little box. It isn’t something that the manufacturer recalls and you can send back for a refund or a replacement (too bad – because how much easier it would be if that were the case). Postpartum Depression is real.
My ultimate goal is to Help Women Heal from Postpartum Depression. And I’m doing it… one step at a time. One baby step. I JUST KEEP MOVING.